Sunday, November 30, 2008;
8:21 PM
I really didn't know what went wrong in my mind...
i know you will be reading this..
you're right...i admit i do doubt you at times...
and thats because i doubt myself in the first place...
everytime i start thinking pessimisticly,
i will start to doubt myself.
and it further expands itself into doubting you.
and maybe the first time i hurt you,
didn't really give me a knock on my head...
cos i only thought i doubted you..
only, now then i realised...
its not you who i doubt,
its me...
and as long as i don't get over this barrier,
history will definitely repeat itself...
and NO! you're not to blame...
i know saying sorry ain't gonna help.
i know you had never doubted me...
and i know you will go through this with me?
cos now i know, even after how much hurt i had
inflicted on you...
you will still stand by me at the end of the day...
surporting me,
and loving me...
i know this is a major obstacle for us,
but i know it, somewhere in my heart, that
we can go through this together ...
i know i have hurt you, by not trusting you...
but i know it wont happen again..
and i'm not promising you this time...
for this time i know it.
ESCAPE.